Chapter 6- Decisions
I woke up earlier than I thought I would the morning after the Halloween party. I was a bit hung-over but nothing like I thought I would be. I keep thinking to myself how screwed up last night was.
First, I went to Merlotte’s to tell my mom that Sookie and I were no longer together.
Second, Sookie had agreed to come to the party with me for the price of a bag of Peanut Butter M&M’s.
Third, the party is where we had a phenomenal time, despite what was about to happen.
Fourth, it was also where I made the biggest mistake of my life letting her go through with the relationship breakup.
I couldn’t believe how gracious she was in the afternoon about helping me out. She said she was intuitive like Adele and she knew I needed her help out of a bad situation.
She said she was my fairy godmother; she was dressed as a fairy after all.
The fight we were supposed to have was well choreographed but when she started it a totally different way than what we had discussed I knew something was wrong.
But when she started ad-libbing I was lost and dumbfounded. But it seemed like it was going to be perfect. But what she said next killed me, my friends hated her and she had overheard them talking, what was I thinking about this going to be easy?
I know it had to happen but I did not know I would ache for her. I fell asleep thinking about her and woke up doing the same, it was not supposed to be this way. I knew I was only going to have her for a short time but I became attached too quickly.
I reveled in her beauty and presence, while we sat on the swing under the weeping willow tree and talked. She kissed me a few times, just light sweet kisses but it was enough to affect me in an odd way. One I would surely miss.
I guess I would never get to know that aura or presence she had because I was not supposed to see her ever again. That was our deal but could I stick to it?
I took a deep breath and went downstairs to get some coffee so I could think better. I wanted to be holed up in my room all day but I figured I would be searched out sooner or later.
But quiet time was not in my cards for the day. Mom and Dad were waiting for me at the dining room table. Mom handed me a mug of coffee and told me to sit. Okay I could handle her being sweet, it’s what I needed.
However it is far from what happened. Mom lit into me about being foolish and stupid for letting her run away. The argument should have never happened and I should have stopped it.
She stated next “We do not think any differently of Sookie because she was not raised like you with a silver spoon in your mouth. We actually think more of her because of it, she made her own way.”
Both my parents agreed she was the one for me. They said I needed to get up off my ass and go after her and pursue her vigilantly.
God what a mess I made. Do I tell my parents this was all a fake relationship or do I just let them think it was doomed from the beginning?
…………….. I went with Doomed…………
I sat there for a while listening to my parents. They really seemed to like Sookie and wanted us to work out.
…………….. How did they like her so much after four hours I’ll never know? …………….
I told them I needed to be alone and went back up to my room to mope and think.
I sat there on my bed for about three hours.
What the hell did I do?
Why did I do it?
How was I going to get over a girl I never even dated?
………… I’m screwed………
I decided I needed to talk to Sookie. I missed her terribly, she had filled a hole in my heart and she wasn’t even truly mine.
How was I going to approach her?
……….. SHIT I’M FUCKED…………
I took a much needed shower and then changed into some clean clothes. For once I was glad I left extra clothes at my parent’s house because I never knew what kind of shape I would be in the next day after a Northman Party.
It was then and there I made a decision. Whether good or bad, it was a decision. I walked downstairs and told my parents I was going to Bon Temps to win Sookie back.
They both told me they were proud of me and then I left.
As I drove out to Bon Temps, I realized I was extremely nervous.
How was I going to do this?
Sookie would shut the door in my face once she sees me.
Shoot me with a gun, even better a Benelli shotgun. I knew Adele had one in the front closet she told me about it.
Oh hell, maybe she would just run away with me.
God I was miserable….. Not even good enough company for myself.
I need to do this.
It was either sink or swim time.
I slowed down as I approached Hummingbird Lane and turned onto the gravel driveway. I took my time since it was a bit uneven. But I am sure they still heard my approach. There is no way you couldn’t hear a car coming down that driveway.
Like before per Adele’s instructions, I parked around back. I am not sure why I did it but I guess since that is where I was told to park the first time it seemed normal to me.
I sat in my car for a few minutes to try and compose myself. I was sweating bullets. I felt as nervous as a teenager picking up his date for the first time.
WTF, I thought to myself, I am a grown man, get over yourself. She is just a beautiful girl that you may have a chance with.
…………… there was a chance she would tell me to get lost too………..
As I passed the kitchen window, I saw Adele staring out of it and smiling at me.
Was that a good sign?
God help me.
Did she know I would be here again? Today?
As I approached the front porch I heard Adele call out to Sookie that the door was for her.
So I walked up the three steps slowly and knocked on the front door.
There was no answer yet so I silently waited.
There was no peep hole or window in the front door so I did not know if Sookie would know it was me out there. But when she opened the door she had a huge smile on her face and said, “Hello Eric, I’ve been waiting for you.”
I was a bit shocked and I am sure my mouth hung open.
She grabbed my hand and pulled me into their home.
I never said hello to her; all I remember saying to her was,
“We need to talk.”